Flame

When it comes down to the big picture, my life rocks. I’ve got amazing friends, a perfect God, wonderful parents, and my life is pretty easy. I may not be great at what I do, but i have all the potential in the world to do greater than what I am. I stepped out of my comfort zone today and I’m never stepping back in. A spark has been reignited inside of me. In my past, my life has been a trick birthday candle.. I’m working towards an everlasting flame— the kind that only a perfect God could ignite. 

Thanks guys for being so supportive. One day i’ll try to repay you. Love you guys. 

12 months ago  /  1 note

Frustration

I’m sitting here, totally frustrated. Why? God’s given me so much in my life.. am i ungrateful? I don’t get it. 

I think it comes down to the fact that i don’t feel as though i’m taking what God’s given me and using it to it’s fullest abilities. I’m not super great at what i do, and im so easily discouraged about it. I don’t think i’ll ever be what i want to be, but i suppose i can try. I wish i could be okay with whatever my future has to offer. Obviously continue trying to better myself, but be okay where God places me in life. If i’m meant to have a super long process of gaining talent in what i do, i should be okay with that. I need to trust God. That’s it. 

1 year ago  /  0 notes

Character Improvement Clinic

Tired of sitting in this room, no bigger than a typical classroom. Sitting in a metal chair, sharing a small wooden table with two others. I haven’t found a real reason why i’m here, suffering in this mini-hell with twenty-six other bad drivers in the room. I wouldn’t wish this class upon my greatest enemies, in fear of retaliation of a similar malice. As the clock ticks, i can’t help but to feel anxiety coursing through my veins, with little hope to leave this place in one piece. Before long, this all purpose room in a local school has become my prison cell. The clock struck twelve. Before i had a chance to react, the instructor scooted us out of the room for fourty-five minutes. At last, freedom. Thoughts bolted through my mind: Where can i go? What can i do? Who could i meet? and before i could think another thought, my 45 minutes were up. They were wasted. Back into my prison cell i climbed, with my head weighed down with thoughts of what i could have done, but i couldn’t make up my mind. Back in that chair i sat. The thoughts of why i’m still here in this place still consumes my brain. Logic begins to invade my mind, making my attitude even worse. THen, my thoughts are interrupted by the realization that i have yet to bring my bad attitude to my God. I cry out, asking why, asking how this could possibly help my driving. Before long i got an answer. The answer was nothing. This class has absolutely nothing to do with my driving. My life is pact full of activities, worries, people, work and school. I leave so little time for me to just exist. To have nobody counting on me but myself, nobody expecting my attention. In this time my thoughts are able to be meditated upon, and given the proper attention they require and deserve. God’s given me peace about this class. The next four hours are going to fly by, and i’m going to let my body rest in God. 

1 year ago  /  1 note

Stillness

Stillness is not something i’m a huge fan of. Sitting in complete silence, i usually can’t put up with for more than a moment. Yet, there are a few people in this world, that i love so much, that i could sit as i am, same place, same time, and wish they were sitting with me. Talking is optional. 

I have a similar relationship with God in that manner. It seems as though i spend more time in silence than speaking. I enjoy feeling God’s presence, as anyone would, without speaking. I love sitting in stillness to hear what God has to say, even if it’s nothing, i enjoy spending that intentional time with my Creator. 

This contradicts my earlier statement, but i’ve come to a conclusion to the why: love seems to conquer fear. When i’m with ones i love, i can usually conquer fear a whole lot easier than if i’m alone.

Love conquers all. Good thing my God is love and beyond. 

1 year ago  /  2 notes

Love

Things i love:

Friends

Family

Low wattage lamps

Heaters

My favorite pair of jeans

Solid colored shirts

Well designed typography

Photography

My quiet time lately

Let me elaborate on the last one. I have never been a person to do “devotions”. I had always pawned it off as some crap that traditional church goers did. I mean, i tried, but i felt like i had to do them. lately i’ve come to the realization that i GET to spend time with God, and read what He’s written. If any of my friends writes a book, i’d read it cover to cover, perhaps multiple times, but why had i not JUMPED on the opportunity to read what God had written for me many years ago? I’m ungrateful, i’m imperfect, God loves me. I don’t get it. 

Oh, also i love Popcorn

Happy Day After Christmas Everybody!

1 year ago  /  Notes

Everything

            So, this is going to be a long blog. Normally mine are very short, and to the point, but God’s been doing so much and if I don’t put this on paper I will not appreciate it to the extent I should.

            First: I went and test-drove a Golf GTI just for fun, because I had some time to waste. While in the car, the car salesman told me he just got saved a few weeks ago, and that he hasn’t been going to church. I asked him why, and he said, “I’ve been just so busy”. So I proceeded in telling him that there are a million reasons not to go, but only one reason to go, and that it’s super easy to get out of the habit. God used my selfish want to drive a fast car to bring a straying believer back to Him. God is powerful.

            Second: Something I need to work on. Sitting in Starbucks with two good friends, I noticed a girl sitting there with a baptism shirt on. I was like, oh cool, she just got baptized. I went to the bathroom, came back, and my friends were talking to her. I’m never one to start a conversation like that, and I need to work on that. Who knows what God can do with a small conversation like that.

            Third: I need to realize that God knows the big picture, and that I have no clue. I have recently noticed something that I can look at now and see that it works out best, but didn’t think so earlier. I am only human, and I need to step back and let God take control of everything in my life, I’m not strong enough to handle anything, nor does He want me to. I don’t feel like I should bother God with little things, but He begs us to.

Through all of this I see God is doing amazing things, and who am I to not do everything I can to aid in that. God’s awesome

1 year ago  /  Notes

Never First

I’m thankful for the fact that: This morning I got to church earlier than usual, yet the parking lot was packed. I was thinking I’d basically have to unlock the church and get everything ready. To my surprise, It was actually pretty packed. Its pretty encouraging actually, to know how devoted those serving at blue ridge are to God. Going the extra mile and getting to church early to prepare his or her heart to serve the Creator. I guess I really appreciate knowing that if any of us didn’t do our part, as the body of Christ, we could not serve God to the same extent we do together.
Thank you guys.

1 year ago  /  1 note