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Failure
Why is it that a person’s first reaction to failure is to stop trying? Maybe that’s not everyone but that’s definitely me. Of course there is the prominent quote “If at first you don’t succeed, try, try again.” And of course the little train, Thomas. (Bless his heart) But I just haven’t really felt like that was an option?
As I grew up, I normally caught onto things pretty quickly (Video games, sports, some school, Technical stuff). In my understanding, life seems to get harder and harder. While I caught onto things quickly back then, it doesn’t seem to come to me as easily nowadays. I really want to get into photography and graphic design, and some music; but I’m not used to needing to work really hard to get anywhere with it; which frustrates me, to be put simply.
Photography I haven’t been so frustrated with, because I haven’t even had a chance to get started. I’m in the process of trying to put away some money to purchase a DSLR to get started into photography. This area hasn’t frustrated me yet, but I’m sure it will come
Design has definitely been a center for frustration. I have a huge blessing when it comes to this but can also be a curse. One of my closest friends, Colin, is an incredible artist. He has a great heart and has offered his help in any way he can to push me forward in it. This is an incredible blessing but for some reason is a curse. While he is such a good designer and loves to help, I see his work and wish I could do just as well as he. I completely understand that he is older than me with more experience and education under his belt, but for some reason knowing that I have a possibility of in the future being better than I am now, it still does not keep me from being discouraged. Don’t get me wrong, I’m SO thankful for Colin helping me out, but it’s just something inside me that tells me I should be able to succeed first try that gets me discouraged.
Music is another place I get pretty frustrated, especially because my favorite artists are Jack Johnson and John Mayer. I hear a song I really like, therefore; I look up the song on Google and learn the chords. When I can’t play a song I get really frustrated, and give up.
To sum all of this up, I need to be learning to not expect perfection the first time around, and to be patient about it, because I’m not perfect.
