1. Devotions

    So, I’ve always had a hard time with devotions. As soon as i lay my head down on my pillow at night i can fall asleep, as soon as i wake up i’m a walking zombie, and i’m busy in mid day. This has been my excuse to do as little devotions as possible. Although, i can find time to go out to eat with friends, go to movies, play video games and so on. I have found this to be one of my weakest areas. 

    Saturday night, well, sunday morning, at 1:00 AM, i decided that i was going to spend as much time as my body abled me to from 1:00 on. Granted, it wasn’t any more than an hour, but i found myself disappointed in that. 

    Last night started reading the book Crazy Love over again… and i watched the video called “Just Stop and Think”. (If you haven’t watched this, go to Crazylovebook.com and click on it.) I have seen this before, and i guess it never really registered. I mean, who am i? I take for granted basically everything i could possibly take for granted. The fact that i’m alive, the fact that the earth is so beautiful, the people that love me, the God that loves me, and i just go on like its another day. It really dawned on me. So last night i prayed that God would start making me see the places i take for granted, and for me to notice the details in life more.

    I fell asleep, woke up the next day, the second i woke up, first thought to my head: “Thank you GOD”. I think that was God’s reminder of what i prayed last night. I got to church. On my walk in i noticed the ice in the grass and on the trees and how beautiful it was. And all throughout my day i started noticing things i hadn’t before, and realizing how lucky i am, and how i am SO unworthy of God’s love. 

    I have really felt God’s presence in the past few days, and how He is TOTALLY there for me, whether i am thankful for that or not. 

    Over all of this, all day i have been looking forward to my devotions, and the music and prayer that i have scheduled to spend with God tonight. Rarely in my life have i looked forward to sitting down and doing devotions. Thank you GOD.

    2 years ago  /  Notes